Confliction.

When I went into work today, my boss said he needed to talk to me. Earlier this week I posted a copy of the dates and times I'd need off for the summer musical so that I could be scheduled around that, and Jill had to take those times off, too. My boss was a little worried that I would be taking off too much time, but I explained to him that I would only need those times of-not the whole day-so I could work some times.

Anyways, he said that if I was going to try out for a main part in the musical and if I got the part and needed to take off even more time for the extra practices, he would need to hire someone to fill in for me while I was in the musical. And that, when I came back, he couldn't just fire that person. Then he told me that I had to choose between my job and the musical.

Now, I don't know about you, but I actually like my job. Yeah, I make sandwiches, but it's fun, not too difficult, and it gives me some money too. Plus, I'd spent a long time looking for a job and finally got this one-I don't want to give it up that easily. Also, I love music. Music is my life and this year I was planning on trying out for a main part....In fact, I had my heart set on it. However, after this meeting with my boss, I told him I guess I wouldn't try out for a main part, so I could keep my job.

At first I was like, "Yeah...Okay. I can always do it next year." But now that I'm thinking about it, I really want to try out for a main part. I know I haven't had that much acting experience, (I was in Steben's for a while when I was younger, but I don't think I'm that great at acting now), but if I was given a smaller part in the musical I'm sure I could manage. I don't think I'm going to go into music or Broadway as a career, but for the time being I want to do as much as I can. Y'know...Explore my options.

I really want this.

But I also don't want to lose my job.

And I have until Wednesday to decide.

Well, crap.

This sucks.

Choir and Quizno's and School have consumed my life.

I have no social life-Wait...What is a social life?

Even though I only work a couple of days a week, i'm either at some choir thing or doing homework. I'm tired of being a student. I'm only a Junior and I've got Senioritis.

Right now...We have to make this movie for Spanish class and we could have gotten the filming done tonight, but for reasons unknown to me the third member of our group couldn't come. Tomorrow and Thursday I work from 4:30 to close...My group expects me to be able to get off of work at 9:30, go film a movie, come home, and edit the thing all while finishing up my other homework and trying to get a decent amount of sleep. In case you haven't noticed, I don't do well without sleep.

And now, I can't go to CIML because I can't miss any more classes this year. I better be able to go on the Art Trip...

Art is what I want to do. Art is my passion. And when my stupid other required classes are taking away from that, I'm not a happy person.

On top of all that, I'm trying to plan prom stuff...Schedule hair and nail appointments, figure out dinner, photos, and post prom...Which I guess isn't completely necessary, but I would really like to go, considering I have a dress and shoes and a date.

I actually have a date.

To prom.

And I don't have to pay him to be my date.

My head is going to explode.

I don't do well under stress.

And this is a lot of stress.