Confliction.

When I went into work today, my boss said he needed to talk to me. Earlier this week I posted a copy of the dates and times I'd need off for the summer musical so that I could be scheduled around that, and Jill had to take those times off, too. My boss was a little worried that I would be taking off too much time, but I explained to him that I would only need those times of-not the whole day-so I could work some times.

Anyways, he said that if I was going to try out for a main part in the musical and if I got the part and needed to take off even more time for the extra practices, he would need to hire someone to fill in for me while I was in the musical. And that, when I came back, he couldn't just fire that person. Then he told me that I had to choose between my job and the musical.

Now, I don't know about you, but I actually like my job. Yeah, I make sandwiches, but it's fun, not too difficult, and it gives me some money too. Plus, I'd spent a long time looking for a job and finally got this one-I don't want to give it up that easily. Also, I love music. Music is my life and this year I was planning on trying out for a main part....In fact, I had my heart set on it. However, after this meeting with my boss, I told him I guess I wouldn't try out for a main part, so I could keep my job.

At first I was like, "Yeah...Okay. I can always do it next year." But now that I'm thinking about it, I really want to try out for a main part. I know I haven't had that much acting experience, (I was in Steben's for a while when I was younger, but I don't think I'm that great at acting now), but if I was given a smaller part in the musical I'm sure I could manage. I don't think I'm going to go into music or Broadway as a career, but for the time being I want to do as much as I can. Y'know...Explore my options.

I really want this.

But I also don't want to lose my job.

And I have until Wednesday to decide.